The topic of love always turns even the most mundane of us into philosophers. I feel like I've written this post before, so forgive me if my ideas have overlapped.
How many times have you sat and pondered love?
If you are anything like me, it is enough to make you into a veritable Plato when you are feeling romantic, or at the death knell of a failed relationship, a nauseous Jean-Paul Sartre. It is the high point of happiness to love someone and they in turn seem to love you, too.
Maybe you have your moment of doubt that their love does not ring true, but inevitably, if it is true love, you receive a sign: like a note or a word or an affirmation. It is an entirely different matter, though, when you love someone, or you think you love someone, but they do not seem to love you in return.
This is quite a nasty affair.
Isn’t this what they called unrequited love? To me, it is like having the person you love next to you in the same room but separated by a wall of glass. You can see but you cannot touch it. Unfortunately, it is always the case of inequalities in this kind of love. Unrequited love seems to always spring from one person expecting too much (the lover) and the other person (the unrequited) not capable of offering what the lover needs. The end result is always sorrow for the lover because you cannot make someone love you the way you desire in your heart.
Added to the torment of unrequited love is the obsession that incontrovertibly couples such a fated love. Even though you know they will never love you in the way you desire you pursue them nonetheless. Even though you know it is no fault of their own that they do not love you, you still harbor resentment which also fuels your lust and everything else. In your rational moments, you tell yourself that they simply cannot love you in the way that you love them. You attempt to console yourself with the law of inequalities. But then, you scan the heavens for a sign and you hopelessly translate their hellos as acts of devotion. Yes, they really love me, you say, foolishly.
This game repeats itself again and again in ever more torturous debacles.
The desire becomes so great you are convinced you can will this love into being, or to make the fates change their course. It is the sort of psychic energy that comes from the depth of a person and can also destroy us. When desire turns into fantasy you have the perfect cocktail for insanity. It is as if I have left my own self to pursue you. It is a harrowing feeling. The more you yearn for them the more you lose yourself in the process.
If you have ever experienced this then you know from whence I speak.
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12.6.10
Anatomy of Falling Love Redux
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I am an educator and a writer. I was born in Louisiana and I now live in the Big Apple. My heart beats to the rhythm of "Ain't No Place to Pee on Mardi Gras Day". My style is of the hot sauce variety. I love philosophy sprinkles and a hot cup of café au lait.
11.6.10
Book Review: On the Punctum in Roland Barthes' Camera Lucida
In a world where we constantly make subjective judgments on the images we peruse — take for example, the host of websites that displays portraits of users that can either be voted as “hot or not” (I am ashamed to say I have indulged in this entertainment) — the object of the observer is to rate images according to subjective tastes. Roland Barthes's idea is that the host of images flashed across our eyes on any given days are what he calls “unary” images. The unary image lacks a phenomenological “prick.” These naïve images are at the level of what Barthes calls “the pornographic” (41). For Barthes, these images are “without intention and without calculation” (41).
The Hope of the Punctum
The hope of the punctum — if I can call it a “hope” — is to stumble upon the image that goes beyond the stagnancy of the studium. The viewer hopes to stumble upon an image that proves a “punch”! If I take an image that Barthes uses as an example at the end of the book, I can take this a little further. The image is a striking, handsome image of a young man. The caption reads, “He is dead and he is going to die …” (95). The image is Gardner’s photograph of Lewis Payne who was condemned to die for the assassination of the Secretary of State Seward in the late 1860s. His hands are cuffed and he sits abrasively against a prison wall. For me. the eye of the subject provides the punctum. His eyes at first seem vacant, but on a second look, coupled with his strange wan smile, and a thick neck. But for Barthes, it is the knowledge that he is about to die — or that he is dead. The point of departure that brings the image to the level of the punctum is that the man is going to die.
What this means then, and I think is the weakness of Barthes’s book is that the punctum rests on something outside of the image — that he is dead is the knowledge that we glean from the text. The punctum — which is supposed to prick our consciousness is exterior to the experience of the photography itself.
The photograph, then, cannot stand on its own — and what gives it status then, is not its essence — but what the image points to is important. If the image’s essence cannot be apprehended, then, the punctum of the image, then, relies on the capacity of the observer to be pricked. This, I think is a high call. But, an admirable one.
The Punctum
Barthes calls the punctum a “prick, sting, a speck, a cut, a little hole.” (27). For Barthes there seems to be something at stake in the interplay between the photograph and the subject’s gaze. What fascinates Barthes is that the photograph can lack its punctum, this sting that he calls it, between the image and the observer. This lack of sting is the unary image (41). There is no shock, Barthes says, in the image that does not “shout.” For Barthes the experience of the punctum is a purely subjective experience that designates a “I like / I don’t like” posture.
Sontag and Barthes
This lack of a “sting” in the photographic unary is probably what Sontag has critically noticed. For Sontag and for Barthes, the unary image offers itself only to be consumed by the observer. This leads to desensitization. And a lack of empathy in the suffering of others. This is the “pornography” that Barthes talks about as a quality of the unary image. What the unary image places before us is the hope of a gift. This is the punctum and what Barthes calls precisely eroticism. This is the photograph’s ability (or inability) to evoke a response that rises above the level of sentimentality or at the risk of becoming over-stimulated by the image.
The Good Photograph
For Barthes, a particular photo, for example, of Napoleon’s brother, that he mentions in the first lines of the book (but does not offer an image) is insufficient to tell us anything about what photography is in of itself. What we are struck by is the eyes of the emperor’s brother. But the eyes simply point. And it hopely goes beyond the tedium of the studium. When I see a photograph in a magazine or in a family album, I am drawn to the image as a particular image, chosen out of a seemingly infinite array of images and I am distracted by the particularness of the image which evades the eidos (the idea) of the image itself. What Barthes seems to be saying is that I can never get at the being of photography for photography is written in a deictic language, he says, that by its very essence can only refer. The picture of my cousin Zack which hangs sits on my bookshelf is an image of Zack, a particular shot of him taken at a particular moment in time. His eyes are looking awry outside of the borders of the frame. And his mouth is formed in a slight smile. He is posing. His look shows that he knows that a photograph is being taken of even though he gives this recognition away only minimally. I cannot, as Barthes says, remove the photograph from the image nor can I remove the image from the photograph. The photograph has meaning only because I can situate the picture within the point of view of an observer or from the subject observed. The good photograph, for Barthes, is the photographer having found the right moment, the kairos of desire” (59).
The Studium
But is there a capture of the image from the point of view of eternity? Apparently, for Barthes, the image always evades. It always points to something — like desire points to an object or essence to existence, but to grasp the thing-in-itself is impossible. But, it seems, what Barthes is really trying to say. is that the image cannot be thought of in this platonic way. The image’s something “has triggered me, has provoked a tiny shock, a satori, the passage of a void (it is of no importance that is referent is insignificant)” (49). The studium of the image is its landscape, it is the broadened face of the image that can garner our interest, even our passion, but in the banalest of ways. The studium is the part of the image that is “anesthetized and fastened down, like butterflies” (57). It is the punctum — the image’s tiny shock — that grabs our attention and attracts us to the picture.The Hope of the Punctum
The hope of the punctum — if I can call it a “hope” — is to stumble upon the image that goes beyond the stagnancy of the studium. The viewer hopes to stumble upon an image that proves a “punch”! If I take an image that Barthes uses as an example at the end of the book, I can take this a little further. The image is a striking, handsome image of a young man. The caption reads, “He is dead and he is going to die …” (95). The image is Gardner’s photograph of Lewis Payne who was condemned to die for the assassination of the Secretary of State Seward in the late 1860s. His hands are cuffed and he sits abrasively against a prison wall. For me. the eye of the subject provides the punctum. His eyes at first seem vacant, but on a second look, coupled with his strange wan smile, and a thick neck. But for Barthes, it is the knowledge that he is about to die — or that he is dead. The point of departure that brings the image to the level of the punctum is that the man is going to die.
What this means then, and I think is the weakness of Barthes’s book is that the punctum rests on something outside of the image — that he is dead is the knowledge that we glean from the text. The punctum — which is supposed to prick our consciousness is exterior to the experience of the photography itself.
Experience of the Photograph
The penetration of the image relies on the experience of the photograph and not the photograph itself which Barthes states clearly at the beginning of the book. But this is a problem and I think what Sontag seems as lacking in the punctum — that the observer has to rise to the level of the punctum. If we do not have the aesthetic or phenomenological capacity to rise about the photographic landscape, or even beyond the intention of the photographer. there is no “punch” to be gained.The photograph, then, cannot stand on its own — and what gives it status then, is not its essence — but what the image points to is important. If the image’s essence cannot be apprehended, then, the punctum of the image, then, relies on the capacity of the observer to be pricked. This, I think is a high call. But, an admirable one.
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I am an educator and a writer. I was born in Louisiana and I now live in the Big Apple. My heart beats to the rhythm of "Ain't No Place to Pee on Mardi Gras Day". My style is of the hot sauce variety. I love philosophy sprinkles and a hot cup of café au lait.
10.6.10
Poem + Image: "Lane"
girls in a gay bar
hold his hand
on the dance floor
image credit: detail of Rembrandt's painting, The Jewish Bride snapped by koe2moe
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friends,
friendship,
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I am an educator and a writer. I was born in Louisiana and I now live in the Big Apple. My heart beats to the rhythm of "Ain't No Place to Pee on Mardi Gras Day". My style is of the hot sauce variety. I love philosophy sprinkles and a hot cup of café au lait.
9.6.10
Poem: Train Station, Hammond, Louisiana
photo continuance: seattleweekly
stands a peach and plum seller and his grandson,a pail of peaches for 10,
a basket of plums for 5;
the peaches downy and yellow,
a brown tinge of grass on top of their round facades,
the plums thin, easy to bite into;
they tell me,
a family of fruit sellers,
their white pick-up truck doubles as a storefront
and their transportation,
hailing from Alabama,
with Alabama plates,
traveling farmers,
a round, happy belly, age lines born from cheerfulness,
approaching to buy something with measly dollars,
rumpled in a cheap wallet,
the grandfather goes and sits down,
satisfied,
the grandmother, reading a newspaper,
trusts
her boy to handle the sale,
the morning summer sun heating the concrete;
the glint of an Amtrak train veering into the station;
the boy shows off his produce,
grinning like a seasoned salesman,
but serious when he
points to some small, green colored peaches,
“these here are sour; I don’t like ‘em,
but I can sell ‘em to ya anyway if you like, sir,”
“No, I think I like that basket of plums over there for breakfast,”
The boy, nods, obediently,
“I can sell ‘em to ya if you like, sir”
and hands the green basket like an offering,
placing a peach in the mix for extra,
this act of kindness both part of the sale and a kind of measure of survival,
meeting his eyes just for a second,
broken blue and his hair a matte of red,
a nondescript cap nestled on his head;
he answers questions;
“yeah, we go from Alabama to Mississippi; just came from Chalmette,”
he says, politely answering the queries, as if they are expected, as if he is used to this
line of questioning —
and I wonder where they are off to next, which town, and for how long —
and slightly envious that it isn’t me, selling those peaches and those plums,
a kind of gentle harmony, biting into the small, but full plum,
its redness firm and meaty; a good feeling to have so early in the morning,
to be a produce seller, to pass off such delicate fruit,
you have to be gentle, and courteous,
making sure you seem to be sharing instead of selling —
and trusting that you are making people happy, sated,
their tummies filled with juices, grown from the earth;
a romanticism is there, for sure;
forgetting the commercial exchange, it is as if one is just picking these peaches and
plums from where they came; hearing the pluck from the branch,
just as natural as giving a handsome tip
I am an educator and a writer. I was born in Louisiana and I now live in the Big Apple. My heart beats to the rhythm of "Ain't No Place to Pee on Mardi Gras Day". My style is of the hot sauce variety. I love philosophy sprinkles and a hot cup of café au lait.
7.6.10
Poem: "Heart Surgery"
at supper smiling, though hunched over,
as if his soul had trouble holding him
up
as if he were floating among the worn
tables and ragged cushions despite
himself, despite a ragged slit
down his shaven chest,
once opened and bared
so intimately touched, so visceral —
I am an educator and a writer. I was born in Louisiana and I now live in the Big Apple. My heart beats to the rhythm of "Ain't No Place to Pee on Mardi Gras Day". My style is of the hot sauce variety. I love philosophy sprinkles and a hot cup of café au lait.
6.6.10
Poem: Upon Pouring Coffee
the black, raven colored chemical that I love
to drink in the morning,
with my fat, contented cup
for my fat contented ladies,
sits perched on a landing in the sun room -
“What do you do?” she said.
And I said, “I pour coffee.”
“Oh,” she replied, retreating to the foyer.
to drink in the morning,
with my fat, contented cup
for my fat contented ladies,
sits perched on a landing in the sun room -
“What do you do?” she said.
And I said, “I pour coffee.”
“Oh,” she replied, retreating to the foyer.
I am an educator and a writer. I was born in Louisiana and I now live in the Big Apple. My heart beats to the rhythm of "Ain't No Place to Pee on Mardi Gras Day". My style is of the hot sauce variety. I love philosophy sprinkles and a hot cup of café au lait.
4.6.10
Poem: Effigy
are like glazed doughnuts,
crusty effigies
on the brink of plastic lunch trays.
The dribble of orange juice,
the nausea of snot —
but she smiles,
because she’s old
and happy
that her son —
well — only me —
came to visit —
a chocolate heart wrapped
in aluminum foil —
that I went and took a photograph
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dysfunctional families,
elderly,
love song,
nursing home,
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I am an educator and a writer. I was born in Louisiana and I now live in the Big Apple. My heart beats to the rhythm of "Ain't No Place to Pee on Mardi Gras Day". My style is of the hot sauce variety. I love philosophy sprinkles and a hot cup of café au lait.
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