when you open your mouth it sounds like you’re going to say something horrible,
but instead, what comes out
is less worse than its preface:
your face all in a contorted mass,
because you are half-afraid what you’re going to say
will be muddled
and
the efficacy of your hold will be lost.
so you do that preface thing
again
with your face:
pull out your hands to the corners of the room,
your mouth opening to the scale of an italian frescoe,
downsizing your chin a bit —
almost wanting to be interrupted —
so that I can perhaps fill in the void for you
“i need you to take him to the doctor’s”
“i can’t find anyone else”
and it wouldn’t matter so much that he is asking for my time —
I have lots to give,
plenty of deferrals to stave off the tedium of whatever you want to call it
but it is in the tenacity of his stare,
the half-gaping mouth
and the reluctance to just come out and say it
that fuckin’ stuns me